Happy Thoughts

I honestly think of myself as a fundamentally positive, happy person but I’m thinking I might be a bit deluded. I’ve got a ton of things to be grateful for – awesome kids, gorgeous wonderful wife, solid business, great people in my life. An idealic little world in Shawnigan Lake. But these demons do persist, at times. And I find stupid things set me off.

It comes out in the songs. It comes out in my moods. It comes out in some unhealthy choices. I find myself casting about for little props to take the edge off. Making songs helps. Maybe it’s turning 40. Maybe it’s just the pre-release angst of making personal songs. Maybe it’s the hangover of several difficult years that has left me half-expecting the next hard thing to happen.